So, after my last post you might think I do not do resolutions, you would be right. I do not want to give myself a chance to be depressed over not acquiring that resolution, much less forget about it by March. So, do I just continue on? In a way, yes. I reflect on my growth. I pray for a new seed to plant.
By reflecting on growth, I search out where my planted seed has sprouted. Is it just coming out of the ground with its baby leaf still turned down or has it started standing tall and opening up into two leaves? I think that I am just at this stage for my seed planted last year. I plant seeds all through the year, not just on New Year’s.
Being a chronic pain warrior, I have several seeds planted in that arena, but I was a tad scared to plant the seed for this blog, last year. Do I regret that? No, since I firmly believe that I started it when the Lord chose for me to. He has been working on my fear and confidence for several years. We can not just jump on our goals without seeking His guidance. Then for that guidance to say “Blog,” when you have no formal education about religion, it is scary.
The Lord has had to build this girl’s self confidence up! Why? Well, maybe because several people in my family have preached to me that I am so sinful for not going to church every time the door is open. But their self-righteousness has always been a turn off to me. They had no humbleness about themselves. I learned to keep myself quiet and let them speak, but …, I would talk to the Lord as they were spouting how horrible I was.
No one should question another’s salvation. Enough said!
Also, by reflecting on my growth, I get to examine my seed to see if I was doing God’s will with it. We all know since we are of this world that we tend to try and take control of our seeds and the productivity of them. We tend to think we know more than some one else or question if we are doing the Lord’s will. We tend to water and fertilize as we see fit, not waiting for the Lord’s guidance. I do this all the time.
So as this year starts up, I will check myself with prayer. I will pray that He lets the Spirit talk louder to me, (or maybe I should say I listen better). That he lets my angel pull me back or push me forward, for my safety. That he gives me words for this blog; for someone who needs to read something that might cross my pages. That he gives me guidance when speaking about Him, the Spirit, our Christ, and the second coming. Then I pray for grace. I will pray for help with finding a church that he guides me to, be it physical or online.
I am adding or repeating some of the verses on my last post for they are important in regard to this post. If you missed the last post here is the link. Looking to the Future?
13) Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14) I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
11) Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
12) I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
13) I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ;